There are those peaceful moments when you experience the true peace of God, when you are BEING who you really ARE and who you were created to BE! And then life gets busy and we too soon forget. I wish I knew how to balance it all out- the false self with the true self. It was so simple when I was just a religious person; however, since I have come to have a little understanding of who I really AM (in Jesus- in God), I find I am in a desperate fight to just BE . I have been so much of a DO person that it feels like such a war- a fight for my real life (Col. 3:3).
I am writing this morning out of the abundance of one of those precious times when one experiences a peace that draws you in and awakens you to what God’s purpose is. That means I’ll probably not make much sense in what I’m writing because it’s so personal.
Who can explain the Spirit?
Two years ago, I discovered five principles that I have slowly been becoming. The first was “I am not in control.” Making that statement, confessing it, and being it are radically different things. It’s our job (our ego) to BE in CONTROL! How silly to say we’re NOT what we ARE (the false self).
The false self is our ego, that which is not God. Our true self is our BEING that resides in Him. This is Jesus’ prayer for us as found in John 17:20. Seems all too simple. But from the get-go the ego has wanted to take charge- and has!
In the Garden of Eden the false self was birthed!
God said and the ego-false self said otherwise. The ego wanted to be like God. Was there really a tempter, a serpent, a devil? Is there? Could it be that those are just metaphors for the ego, the false self? And right about here your ego is probably starting to say “Who is he to say those might have only been metaphors”? 
Don’t worry, I’m not a threat to God or anyone’s beliefs- just to myself.
God never turns His back on us. God is love and even when Cain killed his brother Able, God was loving Him, trying to woo him back into His grace. How can there be such a God? Cain murders his brother and yet God is still having a face to face relationship, conversation with Cain (Gen.4:9). And in fact, God puts a mark on Cain to protect him from those that would want retribution (Gen. 4:15).
But even with that Cain turns his back on God (Gen 4:16-17) and goes out to build a city for himself. The false self has been building monuments to itself ever since. The false church has been building monuments, cathedrals, gigantic edifices (that get used 10% of the time) as a tribute to the false self, not for God.
Memories of Gen 11:4! Making a name for the false self.
So, at least for another day, I’ve seen and felt the hand, the presence of God. Hopefully I can extend that sense of being a little longer into the day before the false self doesn’t get its way and takes control. And hopefully my true self can win more and more of the day- and days.
It’s called transformation: the true goal of salvation!
The Lord is moving on us all today. as I have sat here this morning, I have struggle to be in His presence and give Him what is His (my day, my life, my wonder). Because all thru being in His presence is the fact that my ego is screaming at me “you got to get going! Too much to do and not enough day to get it done!” But His wooing spirit comes to me, loving on me, causing me to leave myself behind and come join in Him… with Him, carrying me to a place I want to be, want to stay in. I would like to say that the Holy Spirit wins all the time, but in reality maybe 20 to 30%. And when I look at that with my true eyes, I want to cry out in anguish for I know that I know that I know I am giving up the BEST part. Lord help me to Grow and stand in you all the time. Amen!
The more of us that can be transparent and be real, the better chance we all have!
Amen.