Have you ever had one of those days when there are a dozen things on your desk and as you transition from one thing to another, you get interrupted- by God. At least I think it’s God In the middle of writing down what I had to do tomorrow and picking up a book to read, I stopped. I was looking at nothing in particular, nothing had caught my attention, but these are the thoughts that went through my head.
God is so good!
Why have we attributed mean-spirited things to Him? How can One who says He is LOVE, be blamed for doing such bad things as we say He has? Why have I believed so many things about God, in my head, that my heart said could not be God?
Why is there so much fear attached to God Almighty when I John 4:18 says that perfect love casts out fear. Is there any other more perfect love than God? Why is there so much guilt attached to thoughts of God? There are so many things that I have been taught by good men that just don’t sit well with my mind- my reasoning ability (that God gave me).
Something must be wrong when God is said to do things that even violate my sense of justice. It was George MacDonald who said, “Let no one persuade you that there is in Him (God) a little darkness…” But we do, and we have. In the last decade I’ve had to revisit a lot of my thoughts about God, and the bottom line is that God is far more GOOD than I had envisioned.
One day we’ll ALL discover that reality!
Searching for God is searching for what or rather who. Was raised in a small Christian Church in Belleville Ks. Twice on Sunday and once in the middle of the week. Dad was on and off depending on his mood at the time Mom went with dad and a lot of times when he didnt go. Us kids the three of us Barbara Myself and Carolyn, Steve was just a baby at the time, we would attend Sunday School and Church as regular as clock work. It was one time I got to drive the car. Always searching but never a Eureaka I discover the unknown. Attended Manhattan Christian College For three sememsters.
I have always blong to a church but wonder if I have ever really belong to God. Times I had that Spirit filled feeling, but it was a feeling that came and went. Other times I felt the power of the Holy Spiriit, mostly when I am filling in behind the pulpit and the Spirit of God would help get through and actually deliver a sermon that actually was helpful. There ars so many questions, dont even know where to find the answers. I read the bible I pray but I usually have that alone feeling. I can be in a crowd or be sitting next to my wife and feel alone. There is nothing worse in this whole wide world than the feeling of being alone. I have pulmonary fibrosis and am claiming my healing however I have to have the oxygen on 4 and 6 now. I dont know what I am saying I am just down and needed someone to talk to. LOVE AND PRAYERS RICHARD BATES